Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Angels


Where do unborn babies go?

Are they reincarnated?

Do they travel back to heaven battered and bloodied?

Ill equipped for judgment day

Or do they reside in their own realm

Twinkling in the sky, reminding mothers that have long forgotten

I weep for fallen angels

Lost siblings, cousins, aunts and uncles

Stories unwritten

Friday, October 25, 2013

Behind that frame


Taboo



Whenever I see him I think of you, your brother too

You begged your mom not to make you sleep in that room.
It struck me as strange


Lost innocence lived behind that frame.
He was a mastermind
Turned us against you in time

If I knew I would’ve told
Shit like that sticks with you till you get old
I wonder if you still feel that pain.

And I wonder if he’ll do it again

Cuz sometimes those cycles don’t end
But I know you would never keep it going.



 

Monday, October 21, 2013

Maat

And is it possible that the hearts have
diverging paths like the rivers opening in all directions?

with the memory of an elephant, as fickle as an indian giver.

Love is more than a feeling, it is a conscious effort. A fight for control. With both defeats and triumphs.

Mutual affection is not grounds for the cultivation of a relationship.

The heart is queen to be defended at all costs. Feelings deferred aren't quite the same as dreams.

If hearts are meant to be broken, I'll leave yours intact.

Just so  Anubis won't give you a hard time in Maat.

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Curiosity

Shy girl, curious, closed bud. Night skyline. Bright lights. Seventh floor. Nervous energy. Heat. Soft lips, weak knees. Brown eyes. Open shades, closed shades. Open petals. Confusion. Drama, envy, anger patience. Obsession. More patience. Adoration. Love.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Kwansaba

Now our people bleach their beauty away

Bitch is the word of the day

A tree cut away from its roots

But slowly we find our way back

Step with grace away from creamy crack

Let us pray from real crack too

Build the race and save sons too

Haiku's

Baltimore
Many row houses
Concrete roses
Hidden treasure too


Black life not valued
Trayvon Martin's are more common
Passivness is death


My ambition grows
Like a field of wild flowers
I don't defer dreams


Love and life are strange
Beauty and pain encompassed
Life a dim street


Forever in his heart
Our destinies intertwined
Introduced by God

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Blackened Pages

I remember when someone read my inner most thoughts.
I felt naked, transparent. As if all my weaknesses had been laid out on a silver platter.

I write but I'm not an open book.
I'm a paragraph and a few chapters here and there.

Blackened pages where I don't want light to shine.
My thoughts are golden like honey coated cornbread.
My mind is a hive, I protect its sweet nectar.

My thoughts are outside the box. In a different geometric lane.

I think of aliens in far off lands and what they think of the human race.
I dreamt of my past life. I ran as a slave.

The image of caged black bodies, burning, seared into my memory.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Sleep became my mothers secret lover.
Forgotten at school, I knew she was locked in his warm embrace.

Asking my father where he was going resulted in a snarky reply of, "To the moon."

It wasn't long before I appreciated his time spent on the moon.

My mother laughed and played music. She relayed cherished tales of my Grandmother; who would whoop the ass of any woman foolish enough to tamper with her man of her children.

A light and a certain vibe filled the house. Peace
Peace that never existed when my parents were in close proximity.

It was hard to believe they ever loved each other. Years down the road, my dad told me that they were the same person in High School.
But they didn't grow together.

He blossomed into a social butterfly.
She stayed in her cocoon receiving small glimpses of light.
Me and my sister made her glow.
Watching her stagnate made me dim.

It pains me to watch the beautiful women everyone says I look so much like fade.
Bitterness and anger stand where she used to be.

My aunt told me she wasn't always like this. Not when she was young.
When her mother died a large part of her died.

I can't deny that a part of me resents the woman I never met. She took my mothers joy with her to the grave.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Nomadic

Is ignorance still bliss when you're on some locked up shit?

Can hardly read but got a full length sleeve
full of rhymes and quotes.

Reagan said more jail time for selling crack than coke.

African American is an oxymoron. I am not an African or American.
I'm a nomad in the land of every man for himself.

Land of "I'll beat you black and blue as long as I obtain my wealth!"

They say Black is not an ethnic group its a color but that's all I am. All I know is my skin.

I don't know shit about what tribe my family lived in. I don't like fufu or chin chin.

I'm all fried chicken and grits.

I got my European last name, that's all i know.

That's it.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

6 Word Memoirs

Two Separate Families in One House

Laughter and the smell of charcoal

The Basement a Shrine to Sigmas

Her Number on the Dog Collar

So Strange, that it became Normal

Monday, September 9, 2013

Summer Time



Smoke, house music and my Dad flashing his badge at the cops when they mosey into the backyard.
            
           The basement a shrine to Sigma’s.
           
            The faces of the founding fathers greeting me every time I walked down the steps.
           
            Laugther and the smell of charcoal.

Nameless, faceless, people crowding around the grill like it was their last meal.

Water guns fights carrying inside the house from grown folks temporarily suspended in childhood.

My little eyes taking it all in.

My mother locked away in her room

Back before there were two families in one house.

Even then, there was her number on my dogs collar.

I guess it was her dog too.

I laughed my ass off when my mom called her phone informing her that

she was a whore.
     
           So strange, that it became normal.